Greetings Divas,
I am having a very bad day. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated with my everything that is going on in my life at this moment. Toady it just all seemed to come down on me and I was snapping at my husband and just feeling like choking out the nearest person.
Firstly my step daughter is now staying with us for the school year ( insert screaming face here for effect!!!!!!!!!!). When I say these have been the most trying months of my life I am not joking. I have had to deal with screaming and crying, talking back, being disrespectful, and ............. the list goes freaking on and on. I am pretty sure that the stress form dealing with her helped to fuel my candy addiction that I talked about in my last post.
So as I mention I have kicked my candy habit cold turkey. But now I am stuck with all these feeling that I use to medicate with food and candy and I don't know what to do with them. i am literally driving myself crazy holding in all these thoughts and emotions. I am seriously considering finding a therapist to help me deal with my emotions so that when I do lose all the weight that I won't be stuck without any coping methods and gain all that weight back. Here's to hoping that therapy will be covered by my whack ass insurance.
Anyway . Hope you ladies are have a great weekend and making great food choices.
Peace and Blessings
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
I am definalty Back
Sooooo Yeah.
I know I am one of the worst blogger in the freaking world. But what can I say. I let life get in the way and stress me out to the point that I didn't have the energy to write or even think about what to write. I think that I am in a better state of mind now and I will be able to keep up with my blog much better.
There are several things that I would life to share with you guys so lets do this man!!!!!!!!
Withdrawal is a BITCH!!!!!!
So lets just say that over the weekend I went through withdrawal like a freaking crack head. Let me paint the picture. When I first began my weight loss journey on Dec. 28, 2010 I was terrible addicted to all things sweet and candy like. Like literally I had a full on addiction. I exhibited addictive behavior like hiding my candy and sneaking out to buy more. It was truly a sad sight to see. Through my wonderful weight loss center I went through sort of a detox to help me kick the sweets habit. AND IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!!! I was candy free for about 5 months. Now remember when I said I was going on a cruise well I gave myself permission to have some candy for the trip. That started a down ward spiral back into being an addict. Literally I was going out and buying a shit load of candy at least every other day and sneaking and eating it.
Finally I confessed to my nutritionist what was going on and she told me that I would have to detox again to get it back out of my system. I accomplished this over the past weekend and I am happy to report that I am 6 day s sober! LOL I need a CA (Candyholics Anonymous) meeting to attend.
I'm Almost There
That's right after kicking the candy again I am back to losing like I was at the beginning of my journey. So check out that ticker ladies. I am down 78.2 lbs!!!!!!! And I am only 0.2 lbs away form being out of the 300s. I am so close and I don't want to do anything that could keep me from reaching my first major goal. So wish me luck ladies.
I know that I can do it and keep on. My new goal is to be at 268 by Christmas. I know this is attainable since I am back on track and doing what i am supposed to do to loose this weight. If I make that goal I will have lost 110 lbs in a year which I think is amazing.
I hope to stay on track through the holiday season.
So here's to coming back to the blogging world frorealz this time.
Peace and Blessings Divas
I know I am one of the worst blogger in the freaking world. But what can I say. I let life get in the way and stress me out to the point that I didn't have the energy to write or even think about what to write. I think that I am in a better state of mind now and I will be able to keep up with my blog much better.
There are several things that I would life to share with you guys so lets do this man!!!!!!!!
Withdrawal is a BITCH!!!!!!
So lets just say that over the weekend I went through withdrawal like a freaking crack head. Let me paint the picture. When I first began my weight loss journey on Dec. 28, 2010 I was terrible addicted to all things sweet and candy like. Like literally I had a full on addiction. I exhibited addictive behavior like hiding my candy and sneaking out to buy more. It was truly a sad sight to see. Through my wonderful weight loss center I went through sort of a detox to help me kick the sweets habit. AND IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!!! I was candy free for about 5 months. Now remember when I said I was going on a cruise well I gave myself permission to have some candy for the trip. That started a down ward spiral back into being an addict. Literally I was going out and buying a shit load of candy at least every other day and sneaking and eating it.
Finally I confessed to my nutritionist what was going on and she told me that I would have to detox again to get it back out of my system. I accomplished this over the past weekend and I am happy to report that I am 6 day s sober! LOL I need a CA (Candyholics Anonymous) meeting to attend.
I'm Almost There
That's right after kicking the candy again I am back to losing like I was at the beginning of my journey. So check out that ticker ladies. I am down 78.2 lbs!!!!!!! And I am only 0.2 lbs away form being out of the 300s. I am so close and I don't want to do anything that could keep me from reaching my first major goal. So wish me luck ladies.
I know that I can do it and keep on. My new goal is to be at 268 by Christmas. I know this is attainable since I am back on track and doing what i am supposed to do to loose this weight. If I make that goal I will have lost 110 lbs in a year which I think is amazing.
I hope to stay on track through the holiday season.
So here's to coming back to the blogging world frorealz this time.
Peace and Blessings Divas
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