Sunday, September 25, 2011

Having a Bad Day.

Greetings Divas,

I am having a very bad day. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated with my everything that is going on in my life at this moment.  Toady it just all seemed to come down on me and I was snapping at my husband and just feeling like choking out the nearest person.

Firstly my step daughter is now staying with us for the school year ( insert screaming face here for effect!!!!!!!!!!). When I say these have been the most trying months of my life I am not joking.  I have had to deal with screaming and crying, talking back, being disrespectful, and ............. the list goes freaking on and on.  I am pretty sure that the stress form dealing with her helped to fuel my candy addiction that I talked about in my last post. 

So as I mention I have kicked my candy habit cold turkey.  But now I am stuck with all these feeling that I use to medicate with food and candy and I don't know what to do with them.  i am literally driving myself crazy holding in all these thoughts and emotions.  I am seriously considering finding a therapist to help me deal with my emotions so that when I do lose all the weight that I won't be stuck without any coping methods and gain all that weight back. Here's to hoping that therapy will be covered by my whack ass insurance.

Anyway . Hope you ladies are have a great weekend and making great food choices.

Peace and Blessings

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Friday, September 23, 2011

I am definalty Back

Sooooo Yeah.

I know I am one of the worst blogger in the freaking world. But what can I say.  I let life get in the way and stress me out to the point that I didn't have the energy to write or even think about what to write.  I think that I am in a better state of mind now and I will be able to keep up with my blog much better.

There are several things that I would life to share with you guys so lets do this man!!!!!!!!

Withdrawal is a BITCH!!!!!!

So lets just say that over the weekend I went through withdrawal like a freaking crack head.  Let me paint the picture.  When I first began my weight loss journey on Dec. 28, 2010 I was terrible addicted to all things sweet and candy like.  Like literally I had a  full on addiction. I exhibited addictive behavior like hiding my candy and sneaking out to buy more. It was truly a sad sight to see.  Through my wonderful weight loss center I went through sort of a detox to help me kick the sweets habit. AND IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!!! I was candy free for about 5 months.  Now remember when I said I was going on a cruise well I gave myself permission to have some candy for the trip. That started a down ward spiral back into being an addict.  Literally I was going out and buying a shit load of candy at least every other day and sneaking and eating it. 

Finally I confessed to my nutritionist what was going on and she told me that I would have to detox again to get it back out of my system.  I accomplished this over the past weekend and I am happy to report that I am 6 day s sober! LOL I need a CA (Candyholics Anonymous) meeting to attend.

I'm Almost There

That's right after kicking the candy again I am back to losing like I was at the beginning of my journey.  So check out that ticker ladies.  I am down 78.2 lbs!!!!!!! And  I am only 0.2 lbs away form being out of the 300s. I am so close and I don't want to do anything that could keep me from reaching my first major goal.  So wish me luck ladies. 

I know that I can do it and keep on. My new goal is to be at 268 by Christmas.  I know this is attainable since I am back on track and doing what i am supposed to do to loose this weight.  If I make that goal I will have lost 110 lbs in a year which I think is amazing.  

I hope to stay on track through the holiday season. 

So here's to coming back to the blogging world frorealz this time. 

Peace and Blessings Divas

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