Already With the Temptations!

So I'm sitting here at work with nothing to do and what pops in my head! Evil monstrous thoughts of candy and sugar! WTF! I just started this journey today and I can't even make it 24 hours without some kind of temptation.  All I have to do is walk down those steps and go the the vending machine.  I think I will and curse out the machine. I will tell it how its lies and deciet lead me to a vast wastel and of obesity. And how its tempting days are over! I will no longer be a victim to your wooing. I am a strong and motivated DIVA and I will not be taken down by your evil offereings. 

I am standing up to you craving. I am the boss and I will not give in.

Well now I feel better and I hope that I can make it for the rest of the night!

Signed,

Won't Be Tempted!

Official First Day

So this is my official first day of the rest of my life! I am totally committed and ready to make the necessary changes to make myself a bit more Divalicious! LOL

I guess I better start from the beginning then!

So my name is Charmaine and I was married in May to my wonderful husband Trey! The wedding was beautiful and even though I was big I looked damn good in my wedding gown!

Any who! I had been trying and failing obviously to loose some weight before my wedding and I succeeded, somewhat. Well after the wedding I stoped trying and started gaining more weight.

I reached my heaviest in August of '09 tipping the scales at 380lbs.  I was shocked and pissed at myself for letting my weight get this out of hand but still I did nothing about it. 

I'm not sure what happenend to make me want to start this weight loss journey but there is something in me that just wants to be healty.  One reason is so that my husband and I can start trying to concieve. I don't want to be fat and pregnant! I am sure that is a bad combination.  So this is the start of my new life.
I know that I will have some struggles along the way, but I am sure that I will be able to make it work this time.  I am doing this for myself and no one else. I don't care what other think and most definatly not what they say about me.  I am on a self journey and there is no sidecare on my cycle of glory.  To everyone who doesn't like it "KICK BIG DUSTY ROCKS!"  I am going to be the best me I can be no matter how long it take I won't give up!

I am GETTING DOWN: DIVILICIOUS STYLE!
You can be a diva too!! Join me if you dare!

Signed,
Been a fat DIVA too long!!

Getting Started

Hi Blog World,

This is going to be my motivation for my journey of weight loss. I figured if I have to answer to others everyday then that would motivate me not to slack off and to get the job done. This is my first post so I will be back later for formal introductions and all that other jazz! Hope you will join me in my journey and maybe we can motivate each other!

Good Luck!